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Wednesday, January 26, 2011
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12:07 PM - Mixed feelings
On this day, 26/01/11..
All of us received our postings to the various schools that we are being allocated to. I received the msg at 6.17am in the morning. Actually I didnt really sleep well yesterday night, thinking too much and my mind kept whirling and thinking about the various questions that popped up in my brain, like what if I cant get into Nanyang JC? What if I enter the school that I do not like? Will I be able to make new friends in a new environment? Can I even cope with JC life? No doubt, some of my questions are actually not important and it is excess thinking on my part. Just to tell u guys frankly that I entered Yishun Junior College. I knew that I will enter that JC, but part of my mind is still revolving and hoping praying that NYjc will accept me but it is impossible. I had to face up to the truth. It is me who did poorly for the O'levels and i do not have the choice at all. Had to accept the fact and face reality. I am not trying to be pesimistic but that.. that is just being me to think about all these trival matters. Most importantly, we must look forward and face life bravely right? My parents kept telling me that it is okay gg to yjc, u can excel there and makes sure no one will kan bu qi ni. The ultamate result will be the A' levels right? Cos regardless of which jc u go to, we take the same exams, no thru-train or anything, so I guess that everything wil be fair and square by then? Nothing is fair in the world anyway. Maybe one day u do very very well in A'levels and u can even boast to ur friends that u came from a jc that is of a lower standard but u can score better. Ur pict may be sent back to Amkss too. Guess that this thought makes me feel better? :) I cried u know, everyday after the release of result, and everytime I think of it I will feel a tinge of sadness..
I know that some of u are unhappy with ur postings, wish u guys the best of luck in ur appealing! But anyways, just want to tell u guys a real story. I got a primary school fren in st'margaret sec, she got good grades in her sciences and english, but sadly her maths failed. I was in same class as her in primary sch and she do not like maths but still she got a B in PSLE. When result is released on 10/01, she got a D7 in emaths and she takes POA instead of amaths. Being a perfectionist herself, she cant get herself to accept the fact that she is not able to go to a JC or even a poly. Obviously she cant go ITE right? Cos she studies very hard one, if go ITE, will be wasted, as she has talent in English and sciences very strong (in Bio). She did not even dare to show her result to her mum until 3 days later and spent the time in room, sobbing and everything. She is seriously more kelian than me and I should 知足 right? Her parents even brought her to see a councillor as they were afraid that she will commit suicide. That is how kong bu and can ren life is. A studious girl like her, heaven didn't give her a chance despite she studied.. In the end, her dad pleaded with smss to take her back. But how she face the people in sch? Ambarrassment and didn't even want to go out, as she may meet familiar faces and they will ask which school u go to, etc.
Okay, enough of my blabbering and my stories. My post is so lengthy. Goodbye~
All of us received our postings to the various schools that we are being allocated to. I received the msg at 6.17am in the morning. Actually I didnt really sleep well yesterday night, thinking too much and my mind kept whirling and thinking about the various questions that popped up in my brain, like what if I cant get into Nanyang JC? What if I enter the school that I do not like? Will I be able to make new friends in a new environment? Can I even cope with JC life? No doubt, some of my questions are actually not important and it is excess thinking on my part. Just to tell u guys frankly that I entered Yishun Junior College. I knew that I will enter that JC, but part of my mind is still revolving and hoping praying that NYjc will accept me but it is impossible. I had to face up to the truth. It is me who did poorly for the O'levels and i do not have the choice at all. Had to accept the fact and face reality. I am not trying to be pesimistic but that.. that is just being me to think about all these trival matters. Most importantly, we must look forward and face life bravely right? My parents kept telling me that it is okay gg to yjc, u can excel there and makes sure no one will kan bu qi ni. The ultamate result will be the A' levels right? Cos regardless of which jc u go to, we take the same exams, no thru-train or anything, so I guess that everything wil be fair and square by then? Nothing is fair in the world anyway. Maybe one day u do very very well in A'levels and u can even boast to ur friends that u came from a jc that is of a lower standard but u can score better. Ur pict may be sent back to Amkss too. Guess that this thought makes me feel better? :) I cried u know, everyday after the release of result, and everytime I think of it I will feel a tinge of sadness..
I know that some of u are unhappy with ur postings, wish u guys the best of luck in ur appealing! But anyways, just want to tell u guys a real story. I got a primary school fren in st'margaret sec, she got good grades in her sciences and english, but sadly her maths failed. I was in same class as her in primary sch and she do not like maths but still she got a B in PSLE. When result is released on 10/01, she got a D7 in emaths and she takes POA instead of amaths. Being a perfectionist herself, she cant get herself to accept the fact that she is not able to go to a JC or even a poly. Obviously she cant go ITE right? Cos she studies very hard one, if go ITE, will be wasted, as she has talent in English and sciences very strong (in Bio). She did not even dare to show her result to her mum until 3 days later and spent the time in room, sobbing and everything. She is seriously more kelian than me and I should 知足 right? Her parents even brought her to see a councillor as they were afraid that she will commit suicide. That is how kong bu and can ren life is. A studious girl like her, heaven didn't give her a chance despite she studied.. In the end, her dad pleaded with smss to take her back. But how she face the people in sch? Ambarrassment and didn't even want to go out, as she may meet familiar faces and they will ask which school u go to, etc.
Okay, enough of my blabbering and my stories. My post is so lengthy. Goodbye~
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